Is grief my solace realm?

Pic:- Through My Lens.

My heart no longer

look forward to euphoria

Mundane activities of life and

sun-kissed balconies are

my favourite locale to hang- out

Sittings in silence and reading

a page multiple times

I speculate nothing for future

buying expensive accessories

isn’t a drug for loneliness anymore

Hugging children is therapeutic

When I want to let go some tears

Some travel plans stemming

from a deep sense of nostalgia

vanish right before holidays.

I wonder!!!!

Am I tightly gripped by grief

Or grief is my comfort zone?


In search of my soulmate

खोजती हूँ तेरा अक्स
कभी लफ्ज़ो में
तो कभी दरवेशियों में
तू भी उन की मानिंद
किसी से छुपा बैठा है। (I look for your shadow in words and saints;you too hide like they do).

As I listen to the
soulful verses of “Ghazal “
I walk towards him
knowing his address is not known.

A shadow exists in the shayrana verses
to hustle my heart
into an ecstatic world of love and desires.

I spend the entire day, playing the same gazal
till I can scribble a name.

I walk hand in hand with an umbra in the lush green wilderness;
where he narrates his incomplete poems.

Oh! I wonder!
Does he find a similar reflection in
Shayari and ghazals?
My mind plays the same ghazal
while he completes his, incomplete poetic verses.

Shweta Upadhyay.

A Haiku.

Sometimes we need closure. A 360 degree turn from the existing situation or a person that no longer allure us. It doesn’t happen because we give less to make it work or we expect emeralds and diamonds; it occurs when someone refuses to watch the moon and stars with us, on one particular night. One Denial-is the beginning of closure. The closure is the beginning of a new expedition.

Poised exit aver
hushed words and few denials-
call for the closure.

Thanks, Brett Christensen for giving a prompt to write a haiku or tanka using the prompt word “graceful” (or a derivative).


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